This is my trying again. I’m not good at dieting, please, I eat my emotions away because I don’t know how to deal with them, so anytime something comes up that I can’t handle, I reach for food.
For example: Just this past Wednesday, I had a very rude customer that upset me at work and since I was working, I couldn’t be bitchy with her so I just accepted it and went on. There was pizza in the breakroom, so guess what I did when I had a break? Yeah, at 4 slices of it! In 15 minutes! The joke is on me though, because it wasn’t very good pizza and my stomach wouldn’t let me forget it all night.
I don’t know why I have these impulses, I don’t know why I reach for food whenever I have an emotion I can’t handle, it’s not like I feel better after the “food high” is over… I still have these emotions that still need to be dealt with.
It’s in the past, a few days, but talking about it helps, my boyfriend gets madder than I do about some things so it’s nice when he expresses what I feel inside. I just wish I could express those feelings myself.
As for my trying again on a diet, instead of counting calories, I’m counting carb grams and limiting myself that way. I don’t know if it’s better or worse than counting calories, but it’s a way to make me feel slightly in control of what I’m eating.