Better late than never!

I didn’t update last night, I was just exhausted by 11:00 pm. Yesterday was a success even with more meat calories consumed than what I planned. Here for your viewing pleasure is my food log for yesterday. Yesterday went by without much incident either way. I did see two girls at work wearing a cute Sailor Moon and Aperture Science tank tops, and wished I could wear tank tops confidently. One day I will, one day my arms won’t look huge, and they will be well toned.

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Breakfast:
0.8 oz Blueberries

Lunch:
0.5 cup Pinto Beans
4 oz Ground Beef
0.5 oz White Cheddar Cheese
1 TBSP Sour Cream
5 Cherry Tomatoes
0.5 oz Cucumber
2 oz Broccoli
0.5 oz White Mushrooms
1 slice Bacon
0.3 oz Watermelon
1 oz Cantaloupe
2 oz Honey Dew
3 oz Green Leaf Lettuce

Dinner:
3.8 oz Celery
2.1 oz Romaine
2.4 oz Mini Peppers
1 ONE Coconut Water w/ Pink Guava

The Good and the Bad

Today was a break through in my attitude towards food I believe.

I have: 1) Thrown away food instead of eating it just because I didn’t want to waste food and
2) got very upset and did not turn to food for comfort.

Go me!

Except now I want to eat because I’m home. I have that bag of Doritos from the Taco Bell run the other night sitting on my desk, I’m going to have to throw them in the pantry to remove the temptation.

I took lots of pictures today, so I’m sharing them!

 I have lemon water and Amazing Greens (which I don’t count the calories for). Amazing Greens aren’t the most tastiest thing I drink but they make me feel super full for only 30 calories a scoop. I use about 1.5 scoops for 25.3 oz of water in the bottle.

I have to say, I think I did really well today. I haven’t given into too much temptation and I’m trying to be strong with my emotions and not just bury them with empty calories.

So, on with the meals of the day. I ate A LOT before work, and since it’s Monday, we get a free lunch at work. How can I pass up free food? I cannot, I’m weak.

So, the first picture is of the brewer’s meal that I ate. Lots of veggies, some bacon pieces and some cheese that was totally unnecessary, but delicious. The second picture was what I threw away after I ate the salad. I picked up some of the brown stuff because I thought it was egg based, it ended up being bread based. I allowed myself two bites but threw the rest away. I don’t want to eat bread this week, I really don’t. It was really sweet too. The nuts I didn’t eat because they had what looked like either walnut or pecan pieces in the mix, since I’m allergic to walnuts, I didn’t want to take the risk.  Yes, I ate that food on top of the lunch I packed for myself.

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Breakfast:
3 slices Applewood Smoked Bacon-120 cal

Free Meal:
1 oz Watermelon- 8 cal
1 oz Cantaloupe- 9 cal
1 oz Honeydew-  10 cal
2 bites of Cinnamon Bread stuff- 100 cal (<– I hope that’s all)
5 Cherry Tomatoes- 15 cal
1 oz White Cheddar Cheese- 114 cal
1 oz White Mushrooms- 6 cal
1 oz Bacon- 20 cal
3 oz Broccoli- 28 cal
3 oz Green Leaf Lettuce- 12 cal

Lunch:
.9 oz Blueberries- 14 cal
2.6 oz Mini Peppers- 26 cal
1.6 oz Romaine Lettuce- 7 cal
1 box ONE Coconut Water w/ Pineapple- 80 cal

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One might ask, where is your dinner? I didn’t get off of work until 8:00 pm and I didn’t get home until after 9:00 pm and didn’t feel like making anything. I’m a little worried about eating anything right now because I’m worried it might turn into a binge due to how upset I was today.

Did I ruin my goal of no carbs by eating two bites of that bread? I’m still up in the air about it.

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At 11:21 pm, I gave in and had some junk food, I felt a little better, but this wasn’t the end I was looking for. Food doesn’t make me happy… I don’t know why I let myself believe it does. Let’s add my damage to the list though

Late Night Snack:
3 squares of Baker’s German Chocolate- 90 cal
1 oz bag of Doritos Nacho Cheese- 140 cal

Shopping Stress

You would think, with me being an adult, I can just go grocery shopping and it doesn’t turn out to be such a mental production. It’s a constant fight about what to buy and what not to buy. I have, spend an hour getting groceries just to break down and put them all back, and walking out the store with nothing because I couldn’t get my act together. Today was just fine though, happily. I went in with a goal (veggies and coconut water) and walked out victorious.

Today I decided I really want a scale to start weighing myself again. We’ll see if I buy one or decide not too.  I don’t know if I can fit one into my budget.

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Breakfast:
2 slices of Applewood Smoked Bacon- 80 cal

Lunch:
1.1 oz Blueberries- 17 cal
2.4 oz Strawberries- 21 cal
7.1 oz Cucumber w/ Peel- 30 cal
9 oz Broccoli Slaw (a mixture of broccoli, carrots and red cabbage shreds)- 75 cal
1 tbsp Coconut Oil- 117 cal
1 oz Chuck Roast- 59 cal

Snack:
32 fl oz Ocean Spray Ruby Red Grapefruit Juice- 440 cal
some of the Broccoli Slaw I made for Lunch

Dinner:
1 oz Chuck Roast- 59 cal
the rest of the Broccoli Slaw I made for Lunch

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Strictly speaking, I did poorly today, but I did eat a lot of food.

Fast Food Test: FAILED

So, I asked a coworker to take me home tonight from work because I feel unsafe walking five miles after midnight. She agreed and asked if it’d be okay to stop at Taco Bell. I said sure and offered to pay because she was giving me the ride home. So we pull into the drive thru and I ordered so it wouldn’t be strange that I’m paying for just her food.  I got the Meal Deal #4, 5-Layer Beefy Burrito. It tastes good, it’s bad for me. It comes with chips (which I don’t eat, score one for me)… 100% bad idea, I go for it anyway. To make matters worse, I decide to order a churro because something sweet sounds great too. I don’t know what was going on in my head.

When I got it, it smelled amazing, the mixture of beef and nacho cheese… I just couldn’t wait to get home and devour it. I devour I did. The flavor and texture was everything I remembered I enjoyed it thoroughly, until I decided that now that I’ve ate it, I need to know what damage I did to my day.

So, here for your viewing pleasure is my day. As you can see, the bad Taco Bell actually bumped me up into a normal range of calories.

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Breakfast:
1 slice Applewood Smoked Bacon- 40 cal

Lunch:
2.4 oz Celery- 10 cal
1.2 oz Romaine Lettuce- 5 cal
2.7 oz of F&E Chili, Citrus & Cilantro Chicken Thigh- 135 cal
0.9 oz Mini Peppers- 9 cal

Snack:
2.5 oz Strawberries- 22 cal
2 squares of Baker’s German Chocolate- 60 cal
16 oz Shasta Cherry Twist Soda- 200 cal

Dinner:
1 package Deep River Zesty Jalapeno Chips- 280 cal
7.9 oz Cucumber w/ Peel- 33 cal
1 ONE Coconut Water w/ Pink Guava- 80 cal
2.1 oz Beef Chuck Roast-  124 cal

Taco Bell:
Med Diet Coke- 0 cal
5-Layer Beefy Burrito- 560 cal
Churro- 190 cal

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As you can see, before my Taco Bell disaster I was under 1000 calories for the day, which isn’t healthy, but eating Taco Bell is a NO NO, and I shouldn’t do it again. Any ideas on what do to if this situation comes up again? Input is greatly welcome. Eating Taco Bell also means I failed my weekly goal of not eating any processed carbs for the week. Looks like I’m starting this week’s goal over.

Counting Calories, Again

So, still feeling energized and revitalized from that cleanse I did I decided to start counting calories again and I had a nice little app to help me, even though I impulsively bought a notebook and pen too.  I went and bought a bunch of veggies yesterday and ate them most of the day, giving me a really low calorie count even though I was nice and full all day.

Today I’m going to be making some meat, so hopefully my calorie count will look more normal.

So, here is yesterday’s food log. I didn’t take any pictures to post on Flickr, because it’s mostly veggies.

Breakfast:
5 slices of Applewood Smoked Bacon 200 cal

Snack:
1 Izze Sparkling Birch Soda 120 cal

Lunch:
3.2oz Mini Peppers 32 cal
3 oz Celery 13 cal
3 oz Strawberries 27 cal
2 squares of Baker’s German Chocolate 60 cal
1 slice Applewood Smoked Bacon 40 cal

Dinner:
1.4 oz Mini Peppers 14 cal
2.6 oz Strawberries 23 cal
1 ONE Coconut Water with Pink Guava 80 cal
1 2oz bag Deep River Zesty Jalapeno Chips 280 cal
2.2 oz Celery 9 cal

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As you can see, not the best way to start my calorie counting, I always feel so competitive with myself to see what little I can get away with. It’s not healthy, but I decided I needed to keep a more accurate count of what I put in my mouth, even if it does become a little obsessive.

Today I’m doing much better, I had chicken tacos for lunch. I used Romaine lettuce leaves instead of tortillas so I am keeping up with my weekly goal of no processed carbs. You can see a picture of it on my Flickr and I’ll probably have a food break down for today when I get home from work.

The day after

So I’m done with my cleanse, and let me tell you, the last day was the easiest. I don’t know why the first two were so difficult but yesterday was awesome.

 

I went overboard on breakfast today though… 5 pieces of bacon, lemon water and some Amazing Greens smoothie stuff. Now, lemon water is just that, organic lemon juice added to water, makes the water less boring to drink and I mixed my Amazing Greens in plain water, no juice or anything. I’m just a little upset I had 5 pieces of bacon instead of the 3 I was planning on. Talk about nearly doubling your food intake.

Well, here’s hoping lunch and dinner go better.

 

My goal for the next 7 days: Limited processed carb intake, absolutely NO white bread or pasta if I have to have bread or pasta at all.

Happy July~!

I hope everyone’s having a great July. Mine is going well. I’m on my last day of a three day cleanse and well, it’s been interesting.

I bought the three day Sambazon cleanse from Costco and was really hesitant about doing it, but since I had two days off in a row, I did the first day while working and the second and third day while I had nothing else to do.

I can walk as fast as I used to (which wasn’t very fast) but I still can’t run and I haven’t tried to ride a bike because I doubt my left knee has the power to push the pedal down. I think I will try some low impact exercise like Pilates soon just to see if I can get something in. My body is craving exercise and misses the bike.

I just added a Flickr account to the blog, so hopefully you’ll be seeing my food related pictures soon. I hope you guys enjoy and thanks for reading. It’s a bit of a support knowing there are strangers who come by and check out my little corner.